today.. today was not he easiest of days, nor was it the hardest, yet it had its trails as always. somehow today felt heavier on my shoulders than usual. i worked at the gift shop. it pays but by no means do i wish to continue this line of work for longer than it suits my needs. i hate selling people touristy crap the have no need for. they only want it because its from hawaii. overpriced crap. thats what it is. not to mention my co worker is just.. ehhhh.. and should not be in the coustomer service industry.. but what keeps me going is the fact that i get to come home to my beautiful loving son and the relief of my art. dig around for a pencil midst the boxes (were packing to move next week) and a pad of paper and peace will be mine. my mind will clear and the ache will ease. turn on some music and the worries will fade. thank goodness for art.. i would fall apart without it.

speaking of my art, hopefully ill be able to post some new sketches soon, for portrature is what i trully love. people.. i love people and all that their lives encompass.. just not selling them useless crap, lol.

please forgive my pesimistic atitude!! im ussually quite positive. today was just a day and ill get past it..